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family/lack of understanding - 2008/07/06 13:13 I just need to vent b/c I am so hurt & angry about an incident that occurred on the 4th of July. My brother & his wife, who have plenty of $$$, invited my 13 y/o daughter & me to their beach house for a few days. We were sitting at the edge of the water, right next to the lifeguard stand, when suddenly a women ran up to the lifeguard screaming, "Help me!" Although my RN license has been suspended for the past 3 years, my background for 23 years was Emergency Nursing, so I leapt up to start CPR on her 51 y/o husband...the 2 teengage lifeguards provided a face mask and were doing respirations; however, the man had collapsed in about a foot depth of ice-cold Atlantic ocean water, which was gruesomely washing over the stricken man's body & face...I momentarily stopped comressions as I called for assistance to move this 225 pound man onto dry sand, & continued CPR until the medics arrived w/defibrillator-I removed my tee shirt and brushed the sand/seaweed off his chest to make way for the electodes...anyway, the medics took the man to the local ER & I was unable to find out the outcome..the whole time I was doing CPR, his wife & teenage son were screaming/crying/holding on to me and pleading with me to "help my husband/father!" All this time, a huge crowd was gathered around the scene; the crowd dispersed when the medics took the man to the nearest ER. When it was over, my brother & his wife at first asked me, "do you think he's going to make it?" Then, all of a sudden, both my brother & sister-in-law seemed hell bent on getting me away and "hidden"..b/c they both seemed to think that I would get into trouble b/c I performed CPR WITHOUT A VALID NURSE'S LICNESE!! I assured them that there was something called "the Good Samaritan law," and that I had done no intentional harm-that ANY LAY PERSON COULD HAVE PERFORMED CPR...both seemed upset and unconvinced. Our 5 kids (my daughter, their 2 kids, and their kids' 2 friends, seemed impressed and interested and wanted to know more about what happened & what I did to try to help..) Much later, my daughter told me that when I first ran to help and started CPR, my sister-in-law said, out loud, "Do you think she knows what she is doing?" and my brother smiled, shrugged his shoulders, and said,"Who knows?"
I am finding myself refelcting on what happened and my role-and the fact that my license has been suspended for 3 years and I have been having an absolutely HORRIBLE time as a single parent with health problems/financial disasters b/c I do not get child support for my daughter and cannot make a living as a nurse...I feel so sad...was I wrong to help this stranger on the beach?

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Re:family/lack of understanding - 2008/07/07 10:11 Two things,

First, I think it would have been morally and ethically wrong for you not to act to help this man.

Second, you are responsible for you and your recovery, not what your family thinks. Your family will never understand what you have been through or how you feel.

One of the hardest things for me to do is to accept that my past mistakes will have lasting effects on those who care about me. I have given them reason to worry about my ability to make sound decisions and only time and doing the right things consistently will change that... if it ever does. I try and stay right with myself and God and I try and not worry about who trust me and who does not. Thats between them and God.
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Re:family/lack of understanding - 2008/07/11 10:37 Clinspec,
Thank you for your reply to my CPR story and the lack of understanding by my brother and sister-in-law. Of course, you are correct in saying that my family will never understand the difficult times that I went to (toxic megacolon/near death/resulting in addiction to opiates for the first time in my life at age 42, crazy ex who sold EVERYTHING belonging to my 3 kids/me b/c I fled him after 4 yrs abuse, my mom currently end-stage cancer, foreclosure/bankruptcy/loss of my home..)I am just so scared and everytime I think to myself "what else can go wrong?" something else does. I am awaiting contact from the BON re: sitting before the BON for reinstatement, so THAT is something I actually look forward to-to think that maybe I can find a job and be able to pay bills is a wonderful thought. I guess it was selfish and stupid to expect any compassion at all when I have made so many poor choices. I do pray to God several times every day-to thank him for all that is good in my life. But I relly need to talk to a professional therapist...any ideas on how to find a low-cost (free?!)therapist? By the way, I also attend 3 NA meetings/week, 2 professional support meetings/month, speak with my sponsor, take an antidepressant prescribed by my dr ...I still remain scared and so sad...although I would never take my own life b/c I have 3 kids who love and depend on me, I DO feel the feelings of a person thinking about it!
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Re:family/lack of understanding - 2008/07/28 11:53 1. Try your county mental health agency. They should have some counseling available to you free or low cost.

2. Most large churches offer counseling through licensed counselors or family therapist. Many allow you to pay what you can and rarely will refuse you if you cannot pay. Don't let any fear/doubts you may have keep you from going. These are well educated, licensed people who will help you with your problems.

Good luck.
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Re:family/lack of understanding - 2008/11/22 16:11 In nursing school one of my instructors made a comment that I will always remember and carry with me..."Once a Nurse, Always a Nurse"...I hate that your feeling the way you are and pray you will find peace. Our families are often inconsiderate to our feelings d/t lack of education about addiction, or maybe just because they get a sense of enjoyment from it, whatever the reason dealing with the effects it has on our emotions is indeed a struggle. Nursing isnt something that ever fades away because of a period of abstinence from practice, its an ability forever embedded into our mind and heart..regardless of our disease or current state of recovery in no way is our ability to perform instinctively to a life or death situation hampered. The moment we received the tite "Nurse" will forever be ours to keep till the day we expire...the word "Licensed" is what addiction has the power to encumber. Never feel discouraged regarding the title you earned and were given, or the instincts that come with it. I hope this at least offers a bit of encouragement and wish you the best!
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